mojo-jojo ninja-turtle cookie-monster

I think I should make this my life motto from today onwards (lol) :)



And you dropped the note and we changed key
You changed yourself and i changed me
I really didn't see us singing through this
Then you screamed the bridge
And i cried the verse
And our chorus came out unrehearsed
And you smiled the whole way through it
I guess maybe that's what's worse




Lyrics | Arctic Monkeys Lyrics | When The Sun Goes Down Lyrics

I like this songgg! :))

Syahirawr!

Ninja turtle! This is so fucking cute laa!!
I want to learn to make these :))
unless someone is kind enough to make it for me.

how many special people change
how many lives are living strange
where were you while we were getting high
slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannon ball
where were you while we were getting high
some day you'll find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky


i'm bored and i suddenly feel like doing this

NOH SEUNG YUL




Okay there's actually more. But I decided not to put all up incase some of you might get irritated or might fall in love with him.




His signiture. :))
Have you ever felt like you're always seen in a certain way? Deep down inside though, there is this whole different side to you that people scarcely see. It is as if you only fit into one category, you're the 'good girl' or 'bad boy' and the list goes on. You get words thrown at you, everyone trying to define you....but you know that this isn't really who you are. But as time passes we slowly begin to believe that this really is who we are so we carry a demeanor that would satisfy that 'definition' of us.

Have you ever felt like there is another side of you that you are just waiting for people to recognize, to discover? But at the same time, you're afraid of showing too much. I just wish that I'm able to break these barriers that prevent me from being myself.

Once in a while though, here and there comes people who are willing to pause, look at us, observe us and view that whole other side of us that nobody else gets to see. So how long do we wait?

=

A typical thought that enters a teenage mind:

So I’ve been pondering quite deeply about my future lately – and it scares me endless. I can’t stop myself from envying those who have a dream that they’re chasing after. I’m so jealous of how clear their paths ahead seem to be, how they seem to know exactly what to do to achieve their dreams, being so confident and sure of their future. Whilst I…stand here, completely lost and bewildered, not quite knowing what to do with myself. The thing is, I’m not afraid of working hard for something. I just don’t quite know what I want. There are quite a lot of things in the world that interests me that none of the occupations I’ve thought about seem to satisfy me. Strangely, nothing seems enough.

This irritates me so much as it makes me feel so directionless. It seems slightly ironic that I’ve always thought I knew exactly what I wanted until now. Some days, I have faith that I will eventually find something I am truly passionate about. However, there are days when I feel drained and utterly lost. I guess I'm just extremely afraid I won't end up doing something I enjoy...the thought of enduring something I have no interest whatsoever for decades is too much.

So what are your dreams and goals?
Calculate your compatibility with your crush. It works man, I found the perfect guy for me & it's just the matter of fact you accept it or not. Good luck people!

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AAAAhhhhh, I'm hungry. Random.
Today is one of those days which only happens occasionally.
I went out with my family after a long time.
When I say long, I really mean l o n g.
I shall only blog about the happy times and leave out on the bad ones.

Firstly, we went to have lunch together. Afterwards, we headed to East Coast Park to cycle. Cycled for two hours. By then, my tighs were so weak. Anyway, before i forgot, I must share this funny incident which happened just now. Well, there's this stranger, a guy. We were actually somehow "competing" each other. So I just ride my bike faster than him. And he tried to overtake me. To overtake, he needs to go to the opposite lane and go infront of me. When he was at the opposite lane, there was this ang moh guy who was cycling towards our direction and suddenly he shouted, "WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING, DICK!" That moment I was shocked. But at the same time trying my best to hold my laughter but it slipped out from my mouth and I laughed very loud! The guy who was "competing" with me, gave me the angry stare. I was scared and quickly cycled to my dad. Hehe.

After cycling, my brothers suggested of going to wild wild wet. So we headed there. By the time we reached there, it was 6pm and we found out that it closes at 7pm. Furthurmore, they were having a private event at wild wild wet. We thought it must be one of those famous people who could afford to rent that entire place to hold a private event.

So we just went to the swimming pool at Downtown east chalet instead. Played games and compete with one another. Haha. It was fun. We went out of the pool at around 8pm. Afterwards, we wanted to eat Pizza Hut. But when we reached at Pizza Hut, we realised it was only for takeaways. Hmph. So we bought and ate it somewhere. While eating, my brothers were like, "Lets go for movies after this" I was like, "what?! you guys not tired mehh?"

They were discussing about what movies to watch. After a while, my mom handphone rang and it was my aunt. She wanted to come for a visit to our house. They are from Malaca and only come here once in a blue moon. So we headed home. I didn't know we have relatives from Malaca and when I asked my dad how they are related to ask he was like, "Actually I don't really know. But they are our relatives. They're related to us." I was like, "HUH? you dont even know how they are related to us". And my mom said, " I think you should draw a family tree and track down your relatives and categorised them" LOL.

And when I reached home, I was "surfing" facebook and I saw another primary school friend. Thanks to facebook, I've been finding my primary school friend for the past few days. This time, my primary school friend that I found, his name is Hafiz. I remembered that this guy was so funny. I still have his hari raya card which he gave to me during hari raya when we were in primary school. Lol. Also, I remembered that he likes to draw. But what he drawed was girls. Girls in dirty outfit. Lol, guys and their dirty minds..

So we chatted just now and I found out that he works at tohguan warehouse which is near my house. This was some part of the convo:

"Muhammad
ok ok
i got one stupid ques
HOW TALL R U NOW???
hahahahahahahahahahahaha

Syahira
170cm
i bet i'm still taller than you
now
hehe

Muhammad
almost
168
hehe

00:09Muhammad
man...
i can't believe it
i chatting with a long lost friend
wow...
and to come to think of it
ur did not change a lil bit...

Syahira
i dont ?
lols

Muhammad
yeah
in the picture
same as 4 years ago...
physical sense

Syahira
hahaha i know
this shows i still look young hee

Muhammad
Gendul masih luas
hahahahaha

Syahira
HAHAH!

Muhammad
its great to chat with u after a lot period of time"

And another one at my facebook:

Yesterday at 00:23 · Comment · LikeUnlike · View feedback (3)Hide feedback (3) · See Wall-to-WallLOL! Anyway, what I'm trying to show is that I used to be very talll when I was in primary school. And I think I kind of freaked my classmates out during that time. Hahaha.

Alright. I better end this here. Tomorrow will be another tiring day.
*looks up* I think this is the longest post I've ever written.
I shall edit this post with pictures that we tooked today, next time.
Hehe Goodbye~

Oh and by the way, my phone spoil. So dont sms or call me.
I know i know, by now you'll be thinking why my phone always spoil. LOL, just look at the person who uses it. :P
I am going to share a post I read from my cousin's blog.
I find it interesting and funny.


Love or lust?
let me do the talking.

The guys will always say that they would swim the ocean of fire for his love, climb the tallest mountain for his love, or even die for his love like Romeo died for Juliet. I'm sorry but, I'm not that retard. Yes, I may have not find my perfect love, nor I'll find a perfect match in my life cause nobody is perfect.

I will not swim the ocean of fire for my love, I would not climb the tallest mountain for my love nor I would not probably even die for my love, not because I'm not romantic, but because I'm realistic. There's no ocean of fire, unless there's an oil spill and there comes a drunk sailor throwing cigarettes into the sea. These aren't romantic, these are stupidity. Love is a gamble, all in. Losing your love is not everything, but it seems that you loses everything.

So girls, when a guy says some Romeo shit to you, just relax, make an eye contact, come nearer to them, whisper to their ears, "prove it". Next thing you'll know, they will be shitting in their pants, while I'm laugh my ass off.

Here's some tips for you girls out there, to find a guy that may be suitable for you. First, always find a guy always look deep down to the ground when they are walking past you. It may seems weird at first but he is actually showing some respect to you. Normally these guys are good looking but did not notice that they are actually a good looking guy. Low in confidence, in other word, humble.

Secondly, approach the guy and say that you want to know him better. & when he smile, give him your number. Then walk away, after a few step, turn back to see if he's looking at you, if he's not, then you've your suitable match. Then you'll have to wait. After a few days, if he did not called nor text you, you must be one hellova ugly bitch! Just kidding.

For the guys, if you just wanna play around with the girls, or more appropriate "use" the girls, just man up and say that you want her body & then throw her away, don't be a jerk by saying craps, about you swimming into the ocean of fire, cause seriously nobody cares! Please don't drop my waterface. After saying that you want her body, you'll get it. Not her body, but a tight slap. Hey, look at the brightside, you're just being honest. It's better to be honest than playing with somebody's feelings. It'll hurt them so bad.

Saying that you will swim the ocean of fire for her or die for her is so my grandfather's zaman. I'll share you my line, my personal favourite, you use this line the girl will cair, bunga dah mati boleh hidup balik sampai tahap langit boleh jatuh. Ready for it?

First look into her eyes & say, "I don't want you." & they will start backing off, then that is when the time you pull her closer to you & say "but I need you, & I'm sure that I need you for the rest of my life." Then there comes your mom, "Kau asal peluk anak dara orang? Dah gatal sangat cakap, aku boleh masuk minang. Bapak kau tu ustaz, tak tahu malu ke orang nampak? Balik sekarang! Kecik kecik dah pandai eh?" gerek, gua cakap sama lu.

Hahaha. I find it cool that a guy, actually writes this kind of stuffs.
Till next time.

My thoughts tend to ..........wander.
(someplace-- i don't know where)

Anyway, in a while time I am going somewhere. :P
Yeah, somewhere where I can feel calm. Hoping to bring back all those childhood memories. And looking foward to catch up with the people I miss. I am going to get it all back.

Lastly, to the person who called me yesterday morning (you bloody know who you are idiot), go and freaking die la loser. I hope you have a sudden heart attack when you're masturbating la fucker. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

(Sorry for the bad choices of words. I really cant help it.)
*sinister smile*


Most people think life sucks, and then you die. But not me.

I think life sucks, then you get cancer, then your cat dies, then you have a miscarriage, then your husband leaves you, the cancer goes into remission, you get a new cat, you get remarried, you owe thousands in medical bills but you work hard for thirty-five years and you pay it back and then, one day, you have a massive stroke, your whole right side is paralyzed, you have to limp along the streets and speak out of the corner of your mouth and drool but you go into rehabilitation and regain the power to walk and the power to talk and then, one day, you step off the curb at Sixty-Seventh Street, and BANG - you get by a bus and then you die.

HAHAHA. That's why they say life is 'beautiful'.

Had a massive headache and vomitted today.
Thinking of a name for the baby now. :P

Class outing laterr. See ya. :]


I'm going to tell you that I'm loving my holidays so much.

Today golden question is, who knows how to fly kite?
Tell meee ME ME ME if you know. Teach me and we go fly kite together.

I don't mind if you're a stranger or a passer by who happens to blog hop and end up here. Just tell me and we can become friends and go fly kite together then become BFF. HAhahahahaha.


Seriously, tell me if you do.
I want to get myself a kite.
It looks fun and I'm bored of sitting at home :]

Lol, it's 5am in the morning and all I could think of is kite. haha!
I know, very random.



I'm starting to hate facebook quizes.
Most of the quizes I did, turns out to be true and it creeps me out.

Anyway, just want to let out this lyrics that had been playing in my mind over and over again the whole day.

"They one to talk about get it out but not forgetting about how my worst fears are letting out. He said why put on a new dress on the same old lonliness when breathing just passes the time until we all just get old and die. Now talking is just a waste of breathe and living is just a waste of death. And why put on a new dress on the same old lonliness And this is you and me and me and you until we've got nothing left!!!"- Fall out boy.

My holidays are quite alright. Im having funnnn :]

It's just that, I wish I have a family that actually gives a fucking damn about me..



I'm too tired to sleep.

Right now, I'm on the phone with my primary school friend. The fact that he chose to talk to me of all the other humans alive, surprised me. It's not like I'm good in comforting people or good in making up stories to let them see the bright side of things but I make things worst by saying the ugly truth. (lol)

Well, he had just lost someone in his life. And I feel sorry for him. I'm glad my experience could help him eventhough I teared of thinking about the past.

People come and go. This is why I believe that we should not attach ourselves and depend our lifes on people or things in this world. Cause you've got to realise we're living in a temporary world where nothing last forever.

Sometimes, it is sad to know that our happiness depends on others.
Alright, goodbye.
Graduation ''party'' later but I'm still awake at this hour.


Oh well, I might as well be blogging. It's 4am and I can't sleep because of a very bad flu. Some random thoughts in Syahira's mind (which ofcourse, you do need to understand).

It hasn't quite hit me the inertia of my life. I'm 16. Is this the life of a teenager or is this just a ... different one. I don't know how I ended up in this state or whatever I am. Certainly it isn't anything great, it's just certainly different than what I've been. And all the while, I'm broken. I can handle all thrown at me but ... I'm just wondering. Is it possible to have great friends and a successful life? What exactly is being successful really means? I know I have friends who look down upon this thinking. I've just seen too many suffering in my life. Sometimes, I'm just amazed at how strong I am. Maybe our lives are different. Maybe you just don't see it yet. Am I wrong for not showing care and concern to my loved ones? Who are my loved ones anyway? Is it horrible to be upset if they smoke drugs steal? I don't know how to play the facade so I stay quiet and keep low. It just kills me that because I'm here. I have faith in you. Just don't be stupid. Especially for yourselves. Don't let your parents struggles be in vain. Don't let the prayers you didn't know that were said for you, be for nothing. Don't love me too much, I'll slowly, slip away..

No matter what happens, I'll treasure the days in which I thought I had nothing.

Anw, I like this font.
I've to force myself to sleep now.
It's 5am. And my flu is annoying.

Pictures speak a thousand words.





Oviously, I won. HEEE




Basically, today, we went for bowling, then arcade then movies (watched 2012).
Other than that it's none of your concern, lol.

This flower I got it for free from the kindness day event.
I took two.
Gave one to the bus driver. (lol)
I wish I have more so that I can give people(strangers) randomly.

Sorry for the long period of not updating.
Had been enjoying life and at the same time mugging for O'levels.
Now that it's over, I shall get back to blogging
All thanks to the guy with the two initials. (Thank you!)
(:
who are we kidding? for happiness in the end? is it so worth it to wade through all of the bullshit for a rainbowy trail at the end of that shit? i decided to hide behind the tears of a clown.

Anyway FIVE more days to O lvl. Time to slap people faces. ahhah
Happy birthday to me!

Firstly,
Birthdays. Are. Fun.
Especially when birthdays are not during your prelims. (-.-)

Thank You to those who wished me and the presents and everything. :)

Now the big question,
What have I been doing for the past 16 years of my life?

VOLLLLEEEYYYYYBBBAAAALLLL.
It's funny that just by looking at these faces,
it reminds me that I'm becoming fat.
haha!

[edit] After I published this post, I looked at the date and I realised my birthday is coming. Oh, wow! [/edit]
09.09.09
right now i want to change into my spacesuit and launch into outerspace. i want to go back to pluto.
syahira.

The more I want to chill and update, the more I remember how much stuff I have to do. SEE YUN HUI, I'M NOT THAT FREE.

I'm eating chocolates from switzerland which mom bought for me. Yum Yum. Taste like heavennnn... (Ya, and I litterally mean taste like heaven because I've put my toungue there before and it taste like chocolates hahaha)

And to those haters and busy bodies who check out my blog everyday to know what I've been up to, well, I've been doing good deeds. (hahahah now go ahead and puke, I understand how you feel)
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What else should I type?
See, the other reason why I don't update is because I'm out of rubbish to say. Unless you want me to tell you about...
HAH nevermind.

Actually I'm finding someone nearly miserable as I am..

"We were princes for a little while. until we grew older. and now things are just complicated and much much messier because life is putting together a puzzle in the dark until you meet that one person who's smile lights up the whole room."



It's kind of stupid that I tried to convince myself that I was confident before taking the english oral, and convinced myself again that I did well for it. HA. I did all this just to make myself stop thinking about the c6 I got for my Olvl malay for that period of time. I'm that pathetic. Everything was just a lie.

I have such a wicked ugly heart. I'm realizing that more and more. Things I do or say, attitudes I have, things I think... From attitudes towards my family, to thoughts about people I dislike, to an incorrect perspective of God and myself. These are all things that I just cringe to think about anybody knowing more than just the basics about. As I'm beginning to feel dejected, used, feeble, and burdened I have to search my heart and see if the motives of these feelings are of God or not. Sometimes they are, but more frequently, they are not.

I'll say "i told you so" someday when I think I'm going to have an amazing story to tell that puts smiles on everbody's faces and I will be happy. Until then, I just keep praying for patience and clinging to a lot of hope.

Happy Fasting to all Muslims (:

I promise you, you will never be alone.